Part 3 The needle is how big!?!?!

    So after getting back from my medical screening and being able to get back into the swing of normal life again, I got a package in the mail that was about the size of a shoe box.  I wasn't expecting anything.  So I opened it up and in there were 7 different medications!!!  I was then asking myself, "WHAT THE HECK DID I GET MYSELF INTO??"  Well I started going through the meds and noticed that there were some very B-I-G needles in there, not to mention, lots of them.  So I called the clinic and asked them where I was supposed to stick myself with them.  Thats when they notified me that I was to stick my Gluteus Maximus.  Yes the butt!!!  OMG!!!  So I guess I had to suck it up and do this.  The list of meds I received were the following:

1. Lupron (suppresses a womans ovaries)
2. Estrogen
3. Children's Asprin
4. Progestrone shots
5. Birth Control (if needed)
6. Estrace
7. And of course I don't remember what the last one was. lol

So after much deliberation in my mind, I started the sticking and the cocktails of pills that I was ingesting.  I had to keep telling myself that this was for a great cause.  Well after 2 months of being on these meeds my system finally was being put into hibernation.  The estrace was suppressing my ovaries so that my body was not creating any of my own eggs.  I did have the munchies and gained a little bit of weight during the couple of months preparing my body for the transfer.  Well we got a timeline to do the transfer in feb!  I was finally going to meet my intended Parents and I couldn't be more excited!

    I went to my local monitoring clinic where they did an ultrasound to check the lining of my uterus to make sure that it was thick enough to receive the two embryos that we were planning on transferring.  Well I wasn't ready at all.  :( Boy did I feel like a failure.  My husband told me it wasn't my fault.  I had to stop taking all the meds and let my system have a period and start all over again!!

So after speaking to the clinic in Ct and my IPs, we decided it was for the best to now do a frozen embryo transfer instead of a fresh embryo.  So my IPs flew into CT from Sweden and they harvested My intended mothers eggs.  11 of them to be exact.  They then fertilized them and we got 8 eggs that were ready to be frozen.

Well after three days there were only 3 of them that were "strong" enough to put in deep freeze to wait for me.  We had lost 8 eggs!!!  It was a huge blow.  They couldn't come back for another harvest if this transfer failed.  The pressure was on and boy did I feel it.  I needed to be ready and needed to makesure that my system was up to the standards of the clinic.  It was a very stressful next month.  But after hard work and mucho mood swings, i went back into the clinic and low and behold, I WAS READY!!!!  3 days later my husband and I were on a plane to CT to meet some sweden embryos. ;)